that man with no middle name

my dearest Grandfather was off to the hospital 2 weeks ago, and it had came to the conclusion that he will not be with us much longer... his lungs are drowning. The thought of it makes my whole body feel sunken. I've been visiting him lots, and have had the most treasured moments with him then I ever had.. I'm the youngest grandchild, and there is a whole wack of us! Not to mention my family is full of loud funny people, so I've always been pretty quiet at family functions. Not to mention.. with my voice Grandpa can't hear a word I am saying even when he has his hearing aid cranked way up.
(its very sad.. for I love old people very much.. and many old people have this problem with my voice.. but then again its not just my voices fault.. apparently I mumble ANDtalkwaytofast)
But he's held my hand, I've seen him cry, he got to meet my boyfriend and gave me his approval (he also talked about a x boyfriend he had once met and told me how 'he was not right for me' WHEN WERE YOU GOING TO TELL ME THIS GRANDPA?!) I've gotten to cuddle up with him. I just got to share LOVE with him. Which I think... with the past that he has had... he hadn't really shown that much affection up until this point really with me.. so.. this is/always will be incredibly special to me. I've grown so in love with this man, I've grown so in love with my relationship with him, I've grown in love with the things I've realized I admire about him.

Grandpa is the kind of guy.. that even though he is pooped and danced completely out at weddings.. he will make sure that he dances with every single person. He's the kind of person that when the Nurse tells him that she'll leave him to rest.. that he takes off his oxygen tank runs across the hall to go stick his hands in the cake till the nurse finds him and he gets in trouble.. He's the kind of guy that I named my very first car after 4 years ago. He's the kind of guy who tries to get all the Nurses to kiss him. He's the kind of guy who's eyes show you how much he cares about you. He's the kind of guy who just wants everyone laughing.. He's the kind of guy who loves his whole family to pieces.  He also is the kind of guy who often points out how I have a baby toe that runs in the family.. its so small that it barely has a toenail..

p.s. sorry for the blogging absence.. things got a little more eventful then usual this past wee little while (since my last blog entry) and my mind has just been boggled with new changes in life that I couldn't blog clearly.